Mental Health Blog - antidepressant treatment review

Lately, I've been really down. The relationship, the new job, the no friends. Money, diets and creative block. Obviously the point of this blog and the goals for this year were to overcome that. To get things together and find inner peace and happiness. But I have these days, where honestly all I want to do is sleep so that I don't have to deal with life. And I know, my life's not that bad, but I'm so beaten down and tired I just can't function. And I find that these days are much more often... and I feel like time is just blowing by while I hang out in this bubble of bleh.

I talk to my mom often and she's been through a lot of depression. She continues to suggest anti-depressants. She told me that many times she's been extremely depressed for no reason (apparently it runs in the family). She told me, "here I am with this wonderful loving husband, a beautiful new baby and a great home... but all I feel is sadness." For me, that's not comparable. I feel like I have a number of specific things that need to change or get fixed. Then she said to me, "well maybe you just need them to be ABLE to make those changes."

And so on days like yesterday and today... I wonder if maybe she's right. The days feel more frequent, and with losing more time to another crappy job, I wonder if I will have ANYTHING left at all to make things happen. I have so much inside of me that needs to come out. I have so much I want to do... and I've spent so much time unable to do anything. I'm tired of feeling this way, but I have a deeply engrianed resistance to anti-depressents. I feel like I can fix this myself. I've always been able to, I've always handled my life... but suddenly I feel like I'm not doing such a good job, and I wonder...